I went to the Doctor on Friday afternoon. I told her all the symptoms I've been having ... all the contractions, abdominal pains, nausea, etc. and she immediately wanted to check me. At 33 weeks I am 1 cm dilated and nearly 50% effaced. While it could obviously be worse (I mean, I could be delivering) it also could have been better.
As a result they told me to be on "get off the couch only if you HAVE to go somewhere rest" until I reach 34 weeks on Thursday. On Thursday I go back to get checked again and I'll hopefully have made NO further progress. Staying on the couch has been difficult. Evan worked VERY long hours this weekend and had a rough weekend at that. I had some help with Liliana on Saturday but still had her by myself for about four hours. On Sunday, it was just us for about 13 hours. Let me tell you, bed rest with a 2 year old ... well, those two don't really mix.
During the week, I'm taking Liliana to school. I drop her off around 9:30 and normally was going to pick her up around 3:00 but these next two days I might have to wait another hour to ensure I stay off my feet.
Now let's talk about bed rest: it SUCKS. It is boring and worse, SO worrisome. I keep thinking "PLEASE don't efface more. PLEASE don't dilate more! PLEASE last in my womb just 3 more weeks!" With Liliana, I was 100% effaced and 1 cm dilated ... and delivered the day after I was told this. So naturally, I'm nervous. Very nervous. Very anxious.
I know that 34 weeks is a BIG milestone for pregnancy. And I'm 33 weeks and 4 days today. So getting to Thursday is vital. But I don't want to do 34 weeks. I know this is beyond my control, but I can't think about it without crying. I wanted to go full term. For some reason I had convinced myself that I would make that happen this time.
I know we have no clue how long she'll last in my womb this time. This visit on Thursday afternoon will be VERY telling and then we'll see what the Doctor tells me to do. Let's just hope he says "with no progress, I'm not worried anymore!" and I could breath a sigh of RELIEF.
Three Years in Heaven
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